Alive

There is a delicate balance between the alive and the living; hardly noticeable by most, but very pertinent to those who spend their lives living and not just alive. There’s an application that must be accessible to each of us that says breathing is the mode by which my body lives so that my brain may exact the living. Every notable person you have ever come to know started out an infant, born unto a Mother with little more skill involved than the ability to take their first breath. Fast forward to how many ever years you’ve been on this Earth and know that if you’re still only breathing, then you’re no different than the baby you began your life as.

A lot of times, we sit and stultify our growth because we choose to believe that the best of us has past. Not to say this is conscious thinking, but we look back at our youths when we were graded daily on our performance and see that as the successes we have realized or have had to realize. As we become adults, there are no more grades, there is no more exact study, there are no more teachers unless we go out and seek these things or become these things, whichever one.

And all I’m saying is that there’s no living in the past. The past is the one thing that ekes away from us like water through a drain. We can no more utilize that water than we can utilize a 10^th grade math medal to speak to our potential at 30. And yet, this is where we put ourselves; scared to face the future. Scared to predict successes because we forget how to set goals and not be too tired to accomplish them; because no one is grading them. We forget to dream and relegate our future to little more than our pasts.

Instead I tell you this. There is nothing wrong with being an adult and dreaming. Every course is navigable by change and so your course of life can too change. If you’re using your past to help propel you through your future, then there is nothing wrong with that, but use it as a model, not as how things could be. Don’t try and make a return to youth because you’re no longer young. Figure out the next stage of your existence and become it; that should be your goal. And in the end, you cease living in the past and begin compounding on it.

Let your "dare to" dreams and your "I remember" past tango.